Goddamn my mediochrity

1)Soo, seeing as we had a smashingly normal party last weekend, we decided we just had to have another one this weekend.
2)Cado's family are simply fabulous party hosts. And Eggo-kun's band isn't half bad once they all start playing together.
3)To a beat.
4)And with the slightest hint of melody.
5)I really hate performing. With a smoldering passion.
6)I hate playing instruments, singing, talking, anything.
7)But people who perform are just So Cool, and who can resist putting themselves into those shoes, ne?
8)But in the end, i am also Performance Deficient.
9)However, i have discovered i'm not nearly as insecure about playing the guitar. Actually, i really like it.
10)Now if i could just find time to practice.
11)Vicky and I are going to get together and confinscate my dad's guitars and have a fo-jam session. because guitars are Beautiful.
12)Something has changed, i think i missed it. It's with me, or with everyone else, but something has changed.
13)Actually, i know what it is, but i don't want to write it because that will make it true.
14)It's not really a tragic or wonderful thing, just something.
15)I guess i'm afraid of change now.
16)Chia said that everyone seems to want to argue with him.
17)I complimented him on his crazycool moves on SuperMario Smash Brothers today, and he replied irritably, "Ruki, you're always criticizing me!"
18)And i was confused. As in, looking around for other Rukis.
19)No, i don't understand, but i don't want you to hate you just because i can't.
20)In other news, i watched the first episode of Stand Up! just now.
21)It's about the last four guys in their school who are virgins, and their escapades.
22)Fabulous. Predictable, but still fab. "Yes, i wish I too could again be a virgin...Summer comes...I must go!" ::runs off:: -Fruity blonde condom man
23)OK, there's about a million things more i could talk about, so i think i'll just leave now. Puzzle Pirates awaits!